the secret of life

i don't think i would ever look. one time a kid in one of my classes asked me if i had the key to make everyone get the life they desire as long as no one else was hurt and no one would ever know i did it, would i? and i answered no. he tried to justify and convince me and on and on and i still said no.

i believe in fate, chance, second chances, destiny, and change.

life isn't about having the answers. it's about figuring them out as you go along. and then finding new life questions to seek answers to. it's a never ending quest of growth, trial and error, and self discovery.

i have been at my current job for two years as of saturday. it is crazy to me. this place called BBT. i have made some amazing friends, gained some amazing real world experience, and learned a lot along the way.

i graduate in may, as i have mentioned (many times) before and although i have had a very unconventional college career i wouldn't trade it for the world. getting ahead, taking a break, and working my ass off have all worked out in the end.

with experience done and formal education coming to an end essentially anything is possible for me. but....

i don't want to know what comes next.

do i move to california... alone? with no friends? little family? and a couple grand in savings?
do i stay in utah? secure a great job here? the same old familiar life?
what about something completely spontaneous?
a service mission to another country?
buy an RV and road trip till i'm broke?

i don't know... i guess i'll find out as time continues to pass me by. this state of uncertainty is becoming all to familiar to me and i love it.

this is kind of a pointless post but i love a softer world and every once in a while something just sticks to me and today that clip happened to be it.

hope all is well in everyone's world

thankful

i am thankful for...

my amazing family

my crazy friends

the magic of music

unlimited access to the beautiful places earth has to offer

an excellent education

a stable job

the ability to communicate with everyone i love

a roof over my head

our charismatic president doing the best with what he was handed

the endless opportunities our country has to offer

and many many more blessings...

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

through thick and thin

"The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart"

~Elisabeth Foley


today is a very special girl's birthday.
this certain girl just turned 22.
once again, she is one number older than me. but that's all age is... a number. chels will always be the same 18 year old i fell in love with haha
although we don't spend much time together or have much in common now there was a time when...

• everyone thought we were sisters... or at least cousins
• it wasn't Chels or Steph it was Steph AND Chels
• a concert wasn't complete without a fellow high school pop punk lover
• we'd laugh about kissing the same boys
• family parties automatically included each other
• meeting new boys was a daily activity...
• so was the drama that came with them
• trips to vegas made lifelong memories
• snowboarding was always an adventure
• the art of creeping was perfected
• we were each others scapegoats for everything and proud to be
• even the deepest darkest secrets could be shared

Miss Chelsea Ann Jones


this lady has been with me through thick and thin. we have more differences now than similarities but i know if i ever need ANYTHING from a ride home after a drunken evening to a cry session about whatever Chels would be there with open arms. and she better know it's the same in return. We work down the street from each other but yet i can still go months without seeing that face.


one day she's in jeans, a t-shirt, pony tail, and makeup-less
the next hair done up, make up perfected, and the most gorgeous combination of clothes one can imagine.
not only does her style change but that girl adapts to life in a way no others do.
from a party girl to a fiance
a drama queen to a beauty queen
a heathen to an angel
despite all the changes this girl makes in trying to better herself and her life one thing will always remain constant on that list.
F.R.I.E.N.D


happy birthday my darling
i love you!

(don't mind the repeats of the pics from older posts. they're all i have access to at work)

good morning.

not long after i got to work today i noticed the red flashing light on my phone. thinking it was just a dumb email from amazon.com or something like that i just ignored it for a minute. i finally open it and this is what i saw:

below the picture was this message
"i am sexy"

haha and people wonder why we're best friends. in reality if you knew us it makes perfect sense. one thing i LOVE about alle and me is that we'd rather not do kissy faces, or poses, or in all reality, look good in pictures. cheesin' it up is more our style!

at the michael franti concert for earth day

random night up at the eden house... alle do you remember what happened this night?! WHOSE IS IT?! AND WHY WAS IT IN MY RECORD BOX?!

we really like fourth of july fireworks... and being excessively inappropriate.

another night in eden. yes, i have food in my mouth.

driving to vegas... and getting bored along the way. we had to entertain ourselves somehow!

why yes, we are captain morgan. thanks for asking.

this night has gone down in history.

way old. driving to shiny toy guns with worm.

one of the few but amazing parties at senior's house.

all in all, i think we rock.

the two i love the most

i figure it's time to give credit where credit is due. i know two amazing girls that light up my day with every encounter. i don't know where i'd be without them.

they keep me sane.
they make me laugh uncontrollably.
they enlighten me more than i could hope for.
they are kind beyond belief.
they tell me when i'm being a bitch, which is all too often.
and... they love me in return.
who am i referring to might you ask?!
i bet you could never guess.

Alazar & Sare Bear

me-alle-sarah
inseparable. in sync. in love.

sarah and me hiking on a rainy monday night. her daintiness is coming to quick halt after hanging out with alle and me for a while. one tough cookie that is more girly than anyone i know. i feel like i've known her for years even though she just started coming around a few months ago. i'm glad she did :)

alle and me having fun in SLC. RoLlEr CoAsTeR ride haha we've had our ups and down. It's more like we fight as sisters now instead of friends. we're that close. and i wouldn't have it any other way. she has been my rock through a crazy couple of years!

girls night out!

there was a snowboard something or other premier at a bar named sue so we decided to head up! after doing a little pregaming in the car before going in we were set! we missed all of the official festivities but still had a blast! i LOVE my girls!

most of the crew... Alle got chopped out... so sad :(
sarah - mandee- jen (above) - me - bree - jana

yeah that guy sucks for ruining our picture!

Jana - always and forever my party girl

BFFF's

my favorite couple EVER! i love bree and dylan!
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there was another night that Jen and Mandee has a party at their cute little apartment... it was packed inside so we decided to move our party outside and take some pics

i LOVE this picture!
me - alle - sarah

partners in crime

me - alle - mandee - sarah

mandee and me. this girl is NUTS! everyone says she is the bossy one of their group of friends. no wonder i click so well with her! we are both LOADED with sass!!!

☮ ♥ & girls